Management style complaints and authenticity questions.
Sep 30, 2025
I have been asked to explain my self and some of my early experiences and my management style for this community. So...
I do not use drugs or cannabis or alcohol. Nor do I promote that use for Kundalini. I haven't led a pure life, by my own standards, and I did try many substances that I thought could help me explain what was occurring. And for the enjoyment of them.
I have been a bad person.
I have used the Kundalini sacred gifts that I was born with to intentionally inflict harm on another person. Did this back in the late eighties. I was successful with this and then Kundalini gave me a teaching about it and I went straight to nocturnal hell. Literally. And I stayed there for a period of years. Not knowing how to remove myself. So I stayed and learned about the uselessness of harboring ill will towards another, about abandoning morality, about causing another person harm, about the dynamics of abusing certain gifts.
Then one day in the physical, I met a strange little man in a line for a short bay cruise on the wharf in Santa Cruz Calif. My friend was with me and is witness to what occurred. She hated being on the water but for some reason this one time she was willing to go as we were not going to lose sight of the shore.
This man seemed to know much about what I was going through without being told. About my issues and my experiences and at one point he turned and looked at me and said "You know, Hell is not forever. You get to leave once you have learned your lessons" No one had told him of my nocturnal incarcerations. He just appeared to know. He talked about other issues as well. And when the cruise was over he was never seen or heard from again. His name was Arthur.
Perhaps others have had an "Arthur experience?"
After that and with that knowledge replacing an ever evolving fear, I released my "self" from the "Hell realms." Can't say I have walked every reality contained in them but I did walk what was pertinent to my case and some others. It was a particularly violent area of hell.
Anyway after that the Kundalini came to me very strong and my body began transforming. I had many phenomena and made every mistake available in responding to the phenomena. In this way was I being trained. Educated through trial and error and allowed to learn through physical pain and depression, that was Kundalini induced, so that I could get to a place where these experiences could help others.
Didn't know that at the time though.
I am not Rama Krishna OR Yogananda, or Aurobindo, or Osho or any of the popular and well remembered Guru/Saints from India. I am not well known anywhere and I am fine with that. I will not typically use the Siddhis or exalted skills to prove or disprove their presence within me. I am very, very careful now with how any of these skills, Kundalini gifted or otherwise, are expressed.
I do not know of anyone else who employs a Scatterfield. I just know that when a person responded to an "in person" Shaktipat with raised red welts over each chakra that I didn't want to give anymore Shaktipat and I asked Kundalini for another way and that it had to be based in safety. This is where the safeties came from and the Scatterfield. Another Kundalini gift. Can't prove it and I won't even try.
Very little of what is written is from my little (i) ego. It is from the larger more knowledgeable Kundalini (I) that these wisdom's come from. I merely surrender to their presence.
You do not have to trust me or believe me or follow me or attack me. Take what works for you and let that be your choice, your gift. I do not coerce anyone here. I will suggest or strongly suggest but that is about as far as it goes.
If you hurt others here or cannot stay on topic or advertise I will suggest that you leave and in some cases I will help you along that path.
Anyone is welcome to critique and question what I write. I am sure it falls into some form of category. Please try to be respectful in your interactions with other group members.
- blessings -
-Chrism Kundalini